This month, April, is autism awareness month. I try every year to get excited about getting the word out. I want everyone to know all about it. The good, the bad, the struggles, the triumphs. Well...what good is that doing us? I mean, c'mon, why does everyone need to be aware of just how hard and difficult this journey is? Strangers don't care. They have their own problems. Maybe I should turn my focus onto more important things. Nope, there is nothing more important in my life right now. So I'm left sitting here with no direction. I don't even have my family on board. My husband and our other three kids get it. No one else does. What I seem to get is pity. I don't want pity, I want action. I want help and understanding. I want her quality of life to be better because she is surrounded by a family who will do anything for her.
We don't have that.
We face this alone.
I can't blame anyone for that. We live in a world where everyone is focused on themselves and their own personal problems/agendas. They don't live it so how can they be anything more than compassionate? Maybe I should be focusing my efforts on ME. Learning new ways and techniques to making her life better. Our lives better. Potty training would be wonderful. Verbalizing would be a miracle. Tackling meltdowns with a more positive attitude, less frustration, these are all things I can be doing on my own with no ones help. But at the end of the day I'm just a lump. A lifeless lump with no direction. There is no manual or how to book for autism. I will have to just weave my way through this journey with the best intentions and hope I can crack the code.
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